Everybody is waiting for news. I've been public, open, honest and it's a two-sided situation. It's therapeutic for me. It saves me emotional energy because people, who want to know, can read my updates and I don't have the need to go into detail each time I see people. My immediate family also reap comfort from being able to share and inform their friends and neighbors without personally going into detailed conversations about my situation everywhere they go.
Good news is the easiest to share. A brief hurray on Facebook is completely acceptable. Sharing bad news is extremely difficult. I'm worried about how the recipient is going to cope, react. It's horrible to see tears and pain that my situation is inflicting on everyone around me.
I think the best way - maybe - is to just rip the bandage off quickly and get it over with. Short, factual and to the point. I received the news from my PET CT scan today. There's a cancerous tumor in my lung and another cancerous tumor deep inside my liver. They are both small tumors that couldn't be seen on a regular CT scan. I will need treatment.
What this means is that the cancer is more advanced. It's stage 4. We need time to absorb and internalize this very shocking and bad news. I don't have any other information right now so the one thing I would ask of people is to please not ask me or my family questions about treatment plans because we don't know yet. I'm in the hands of the most caring and devoted doctors. We have time to make plans and hopefully come up with the best treatment options available in the world.
For those who know us and see our kids... please don't ask them any questions about me. No sad faces please. That's my only request at this time.
Thank you for you support, love, and prayers! I need them now, more than ever!
Please pray for Erika bat Chava Ehta. (name update: Ahava Emunah bat Chava Ehta)
Shabbat shalom - may we all have a peaceful Sabbath.