Going Back To Chemo

I'm not cool like LL Cool J... but I ALWAYS laugh at myself

So... I'm not happy about this - Cancer is a jerk and I have to go back to chemotherapy treatments if I want to stay alive. Hopefully the treatments will do that but there are no guarantees. 

I love music.
When I think about having to go back to chemo, I can't help my inner 1980's child from rapping (badly) to LL Cool J's famous Going Back To Cali. 

If you want to know the truth, this is a VERY serious life-threatening situation (obviously). Silly me wrote my own lyrics to the song and I even recorded myself rapping... AND uploaded it to YouTube. Apparently, it's a huge embarressment to my dear husband and teenaged daughters. (Personally, I thought my video was really funny however it was nixed by my dear husband and my teenaged daughters). I originally didn't post the video and I've changed my mind so.... here it is:

Laughing about chemotherapy and cancer wasn't amusing to my family and I respect their feelings. I already cried my eyes out and got up from the endless pit of... mud. I want to have some fun and, as the girl with cancer, EVERYONE has to forgive me for making fun of cancer and chemotherapy.

I HATE YOU CANCER!

Going Back To Chemo (WARNING: if you click on this link you'll either laugh or cringe... LoL)

(With apologies to LL Cool J and songwriter Major Bill Smith)

I'm going back to Chemo, Chemo, Chemo

I'm going back to Chemo hmm, I don't think so

I'm going back to Chemo, Chemo, Chemo

I'm going back to Chemo I don't think so

Going back to Chemo, sighing, beguiling 

Growling, and crying, while in the lounge 

The mood is down, on the ward Cancer

And it's sly, cuz it's growing in A-E's

Liver reeking deal, pushed out, old-beef dammit stop!

and 5 kids waiting....

Doom burdens growing, 'da groan, it's whining 

Bringing all the scars on the way

Constant on ice thinned, smack feels grim

Stop I'm-a upset and whoosh hey!

I'm going back to Chemo, Chemo, Chemo

I'm going back to Chemo, yea y'all, I don't think so

I'm going back to Chemo, Chemo, Chemo

I'm going back to Chemo

I'm going back to Chemo, aching 'en, praying 'en

Tyin' me in knots they never before flung

the chase, I'm upset it's a gyp

Beat the disease old, and the hurls still drip

The uncured grip, but this girl kept dancing

Pleading, grasping, grueling, resisting 

Din't ask fer it so darn, so we should'n quit to pray

Don't want to do this: brutal, but I still want to stay

I'm going back to Chemo, Chemo, Chemo

I'm going back to Chemo - no man I don't think so

I'm going back to Chemo, Chemo, Chemo

I'm going back to Chemo

I'm going back to Chemo, clawing, bloodsucking 

Surprising, realizing, pleas eating me up

Er Almighty - bawl; deals - stall

I said, I liked, the ocean

He bode me to preach, "Save me!" I screech 

Capsuled in doubt - outran burden

How I thought, "That was fast," but this whirl was faster

Freeze! Bearing gore -  withstood the climb

I said, "Woes; more cries, I gotta disguise,"

and I ran away with a chuckle of mine....

I'm going back to Chemo, Chemo, Chemo

I'm going back to Chemo, I don't think so

I'm going back to Chemo, Chemo, Chemo

I'm going back to Chemo, I don't think so....